Heart is such a strange thing.
you never give it a second thought or notice that it is there until two things happen.
1. You fell in love (madly head over heels love)
2. when it is breaking.
and right now mine is on the verge of experiencing number 2.
as much as i want to see myself as a strong person and as much as i want to appear as one..?
I am just not. TOTALLY, DEFINITELY NOT.
and it hurts even more because I don't know how to express myself. how to share what i am feeling inside
as a result? I have all these pent up feelings that are just on the tip of my tongue , on the verge of spilling out all over the place and yet they will not come out.
so, as most people said, those who do not express well verbally? they can do well so in written so here it goes.....
. the thought of loosing someone close to you someone who you love so deeply that nothing compares? it just kills pieces of you slowly one by one, day by day...it makes you feel numb. it makes the world stops and you just don't know how to react even though you are feeling so many things all at once.
words just could not describe...
Seeing that person suffers in pain makes you wish so badly that you can take his place and take away all the pain ..... If i could? Without a doubt, i would ..
When you are going through this you coul not stop yourself and your mind from wondering why him? Why our family?
He is such a good man, he does not deserve all this pain. But at the same time you know that Allah has everything planned out for you, for everyone from the very beginning and He also would not put you through something that you could not handle or take in stride.
But even so, your heart just cannot handle it. It leaks out so much sadness that when you are alone and this is the only thing that resides in your mind? The waterworks just would not stop....
Although, you are well aware that there is nothing you can do but to pray to Allah that everything goes well. That He will give more time together.... You still hope for some kind of miracle.... Hope for a Disney fairy tale ending......
